I can't decide how  I feel about it but Eddie's become quite the little shopper (online, Ebay and Craigslist)... It wouldn' t bother me at all if we were a little better off in the money area; and he's not spending TOO much- but at the same time it's more than we'd decided on. He works and makes all the money to pay the bills and keep food on the table and I totally appreciate it and am thankful- like I've said a million times I'm sure- that I get to stay home with the baby, and I know he doesn't really like his job, so if buying old video games to play is something like a hobbie then it's hard for me to put my foot down and ask him to knock it off because we don't seem to have many hobbies anymore. He told me the other day that a friend from work (whos become a family friend) asked him how much of the stuff in our house is his and how much of it is mine, it kinda make me giggle because yes, its a good point; I have a hard time buying things for myself and/or spending money on things if I we don't really NEED it where he's totally not that way. I appreciate that we have a nice TV and a suround sound system and all the game systems that we do, but you can only play one game at a time, and with Ayden getting bigger and wanting and needing to be played/interacted with its my thought that the 75+ games he has for the different systems is enough. Haha I guess its give and take/choose your battles right? 

On a different note, I think we've finally nailed down some plans for Aydens birthday which is a good thing because I've sort of developed a liking for plans/schedules which I think is because with a baby it makes things a lot easier. We'll have on party of Sat (the day before his birthday) with his moms side of the family, and then one on Sun with his Dads side of the family. Ugh and I'm finding it a lot harder than I thought to choose decorations and such; so many to choose from.

So I've been trying to get things together for Ayden's 1st birthday which has been fun (you only get one 1st birthday!), but its also been kinda tough planning, because of Eddie's many families... My parents weren't ever divorced, same goes for the majority of my family, but Eddie has a lot of divorced and remarried family, so its made planning the birthday sort of hard because we can't just have everyone get together in one place. And since we have a small appartment I guess its better that people arent here, but at the same time I wish we could. I know they dont mind having us over and whatever, but I donno, something inside just wishes it was different. But it'll be fun none the less!!


He loves Daddys Xbox controlers and 
is constantly after them

I took Ayden to have his picture taken today. The other day we at Sams Club and I was stopped on the way in and this guy started talking about having Aydens picture taken, and since 1. I suck at saying no and 2. it was only $15 (for the sitting fee and a 10x13 pic), I decided it would be worth it... He looked so cute!! It was one of those 1920's- 1930's era themed sessions, and I picked the perfect time, he was in a great mood and cooperated as well as an 11 month old could.. We get to see the pics in a couple weeks so we'll know if they turned out or if we should have others (because his b-days right around the corner) done.

But it's getting hard not knowing people who live close. Since we moved a year ago I haven't made much of an effort to meet new people and make friends because I was thinking that we'd move... And after having Ayden I was busy enough, but now that we're in a routine and whatever, I'm really missing having outside connections. I sort of hate to say it because I'm SO thankful I'm able to stay home and do the mommy thing without having to worry about babysitters/child care, but it gets sort of lonely when the only conversation you have is with a 11 month old. 

So I've done my homework and found a group that meets in my area and am going to push myself to give it a shot, it couldnt hurt, and they've got a lot of different activities so I hope it'll take up some time and get me (and Ayden) interacting with other people.  

Its been so long since I've used a journal and since Ayden and I are finally starting to get into a routine I thought I'd take it up again. 
Ayden goes in for a long dr's appt next week and Eddies not going with us because of his special project at work which totally bummed me out at first, only because its his NICU follow up so he'll be seeing a number of specialists (and I'm not the best at remembering all that they say) and whatnot, but it'll be okay because it has to be. I'm most concerned about his weight, not because hes not big because hes growinng rather quickly but between his last couple appts he's only gained 5 or so oz. in about 5 weeks (which isn't much at all)... I guess it'll be nice for him to get checked over, and it'll help ease our minds a little more.